Sunday, August 31, 2008

Getting closer...

Well, my etsy shop is getting closer to having items on it. I am hoping to put a few more finishing touches on the appearance, and then get everything together to post items for sale! Yeah! I am excited, it has been more work than I had anticipated, but satisfying nonetheless. It feels good to keep making the progress on the goals that I have set for myself, getting the etsy shop up and running has been one of them.

Here is the link Remember it is still under construction, more to come. I will post when it is buying ready!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Larger Newb's

These are the larger one's


Some of the new art work, that I have been working on. Here are some shots of the, not completely done pieces, haha work in progress. Isn't that an artist's motto? Well it seems to fit me! Just want to do a few finishing touches on them, but you get the idea. I will post the final pictures when they are done, which isn't tonight.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

My dear friend

I finally found my two photos with Martin and I. Here is Martin, he was extraordinary in many ways.He passed away over 3 years ago, he had a massive heart attack at the young age of 36. I miss him dearly. I love you Martin, and think of you daily. I know that you are with me, even though you are not physically with us anymore.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

A thing for fungi

I am not sure when and why, but I have begun to realize that I have a thing for mushrooms. I get excited when I see them and I run to get my camera. haha Well this time I didn't have to run too far for I found a pod of wild mushrooms in my own backyard. No I didn't eat any thank you, but I did take some sweet pictures! Here is a taste of what I took.

A piece of my truth

There is no right way or wrong way to create. There is only one way to do it and that is in your own way. It is what it is, trying to measure what you created against someone or something else is not giving the value to what you are doing. You have to be true to yourself, you have to listen to your own instincts, even if it means that you are the only one standing on your side of the river bank. 

There are so many levels of creativity it amazes me. There are so many ways to create in this life, it will be on going 'til the day we die. It is so fulfilling to me to create no matter what it is. We are all creative beings, some of us are more in touch with it than others. To each his own way. I think that life is here for us to create, live, love, laugh, share the things that matter the most. I want to get to the end of my life and know that I created the best one possible.

For I am me and there is only one of me. Therefore I have to create what is best for me, I have to love me the way I want to be loved. Love should not come with strings or conditions. I am one of a kind and I intend on living with that in the front of my mind. I cannot compare me to you or you to him or her, because that is not honoring who we truly are, an individual.

What it means to me

It has taken me 27 years to get to this point. It is now or never for me, and I choose now. I am ready to shine. I am ready to start dancing in line at the grocery store, haha that would be great. I am ready to meet like minded individuals who share the same passions and values as I do. I am ready to step into my power of potential and use it. I am ready to create, beautify and accept. I know that stepping into the unknown, giving my fears a chance to be heard, and then letting them go. I am sending a signal to the universe, I am truly ready for the adventure of a life time. It will start to happen, people, things, creations will come and be just as they are supposed to be. It will take shape and form, the story will start writing itself. I am but a player it, a character. It is not only about me but you as well. 

There is a part of me that I feel I have held back, for fear of being judged or fear of not being good enough. If I stop and realize that my art, my creations, I do them because it makes me feel great inside and I can live with that. I am not doing my art for your approval or nod, or to copy and compete with others. I just want to be me, and to do what feeds my spirit, with this I can go to bed a happy girl. I love to see the art that is out there in the world, it inspires me to go home dig in all my boxes of collected goodies and produce something that captures that moment or at least the essence of it. I cannot help if others judge me, or use what I produce against me for the only thing they are trying to hurt is my ego. And I have come to realize that egos are pretty useless for the kind of pain we put our own selves through. To try and be accepted, loved, to fit in, understood or to be the perfect "skinny weight", I don't want to fit it. It is okay if you do not understand me or believe in me. I love myself and that is the only kind of love that is fulfilling, not placing our happiness in others, because at some point we will be disappointed or feel unloved.  Which then triggers the best friend of the ego, the pain body. And we have all had experiences with the pain body and they are not too fun. I am starting to realize that all of my needs, want, desires, and love I can give to myself, and what I get from others is icing to my yummy cake (me).

This blog that I started is a space just for me, to share my thoughts and creations with others who genuinely care about making this world a better more beautiful place. A space where imagination, and beautiful things can flourish into what they want, instead of what is expected. A place where I can unplug from daily life, and place where I can free fall down the white rabbit hole and just be, to explore my mind to poke around in all the corners to say what is on my mind. A place to let my imagination BE FREE, like a horse running with wind. Not to question what I am thinking or doing, but just a place to soak in all that runs through my mind, and create it. A place to get and give inspiration.

 You look around the internet and our whole world is at our finger tips good and bad. There is much negative being spread, "with all the gossip magazines" as well as sick twisted websites that are available, I could go on, but won't. I realize that there is always a battle going on between good and evil, between light and dark, not only on the internet but in every aspect of life. There is even a battle of good and dark within myself, I am far from perfect, but I am tired of people putting others down or finding fault. I am ready to accept others for who they are and their choices. I will also stand up for what I believe in, my values, and for me. I am ready to detach from the EGO, an extension of myself that really isn't what I am about, what my soul is about. I understand that I will get tested probably everyday with this, sometimes I will pass and can accept that I will probably fail some tests. My feat that will be continuous  is realizing is if it is me talking or if it my ego talking. If I can tell the difference between the two, the next step can be taken. I do not wish to add any more negativity then there already is in this world. I just want to create beautiful things, with paper, paint, canvas, sparkles, ribbons, and jewelry that rocks my world. I want to add my corner to the world, but then again it isn't really "mine" is it?