Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Ending of a chapter = New Beginnings

I started this blog entry MONTHS ago, some I took out, some I changed, some I have left. There has been so much that has happened/ and happening in my life since my last blog entry. Instead of going back and trying to fill in the gaps (no thanks) I figure I will just tie up some loose ends to the last year/chapter of my life.

I haven't been blogging much lately, there are lots of layers in this, time, kids, not really been committed to putting my thoughts out there know that just anyone can read what I am putting out there. you know who you are. Thank you for impacting this family in ways you will NEVER understand, the amount of pain you caused my children...I don't think you will ever be able to wrap your head around. Thank you for showing me what I am REALLY made of. You have made your mark in my world, it has been quite an experience...Guess what I am still standing, stronger than ever. Maybe one day I write my side (yes, I am aware there are 2 sides well 3 in this particular story) of the story with all the details, including the lies you spread about me to your friends and family. For now I send you love, and compassion for you are on a journey too.

I think I am ready, I feel a calling to blog again. When you have been completely betrayed on a very intimate level it takes a while for that scar to heal. For those interested my husband and I are on a journey, one of healing ourselves as well as our relationship, no matter what the outcome is. There is a new meaning to our relationship, once you have been to hell and back...here is to the next chapter of my life. I am not the same person I was a year ago, and it feels AMAZING. I speak with conviction (Brutal truth mode is flipped to the ON position) I never back down from a challenge, and I always look for the silver lining, as well as a double rainbow. I look forward to sharing more with you in posts to come. I am proud of who I am, and the continuous growth.