Syran Dreams

Fabu-lash

2011-09-08T16:10:00.000-07:00

In addition to making jewelry, and anything else you have seen in my shop. I also do lash extensions. Here are pictures of some of my work! I LOVE LOVE LOVE doing lash extensions. Enjoy!

Ending of a chapter = New Beginnings

2011-08-30T15:38:00.000-07:00

I started this blog entry MONTHS ago, some I took out, some I changed, some I have left. There has been so much that has happened/ and happening in my life since my last blog entry. Instead of going back and trying to fill in the gaps (no thanks) I figure I will just tie up some loose ends to the last year/chapter of my life.

I haven't been blogging much lately, there are lots of layers in this, time, kids, not really been committed to putting my thoughts out there know that just anyone can read what I am putting out there. you know who you are. Thank you for impacting this family in ways you will NEVER understand, the amount of pain you caused my children...I don't think you will ever be able to wrap your head around. Thank you for showing me what I am REALLY made of. You have made your mark in my world, it has been quite an experience...Guess what I am still standing, stronger than ever. Maybe one day I write my side (yes, I am aware there are 2 sides well 3 in this particular story) of the story with all the details, including the lies you spread about me to your friends and family. For now I send you love, and compassion for you are on a journey too.

I think I am ready, I feel a calling to blog again. When you have been completely betrayed on a very intimate level it takes a while for that scar to heal. For those interested my husband and I are on a journey, one of healing ourselves as well as our relationship, no matter what the outcome is. There is a new meaning to our relationship, once you have been to hell and back...here is to the next chapter of my life. I am not the same person I was a year ago, and it feels AMAZING. I speak with conviction (Brutal truth mode is flipped to the ON position) I never back down from a challenge, and I always look for the silver lining, as well as a double rainbow. I look forward to sharing more with you in posts to come. I am proud of who I am, and the continuous growth.

Getting back in touch

2011-01-17T01:05:00.001-08:00

I am finding me again, finding the spark, the sassy girl. And I have forgotten how amazing I am. I am painting, creating, making plans, doing eye lash extensions (which I love doing), I got an awesome deal on taking a couple TANGO dance lessons. I honestly have to say that I am doing really good, not to say that I don't have my challenges, or a couple of hard days, but all in all in the short amount of time...I do have to say that I am doing DAMN good! I am taking time for me again....getting to know me, remembering, and focusing on the positive.

Changes

2010-12-25T22:02:00.000-08:00

It is amazing on how life changes when you ask for it, it may not always come in the form you are expecting but change comes.

I have been going through major life changes...I am now a single mommy of my two children. My husband quit our marriage when he found love else where with another girl. Unfortunately he was not able to communicate where he was at and how he was feeling, and did have an affair with this woman. Everything I knew to be true in my life shattered that day, the person I vowed to love, honor and cherish....ripped my heart out, filet'd my heart and roasted it over a spit fire, and all that is left is a smoldering heap of ash.

Being left to pick up the pieces, and sew them back together has been the hardest thing I have ever been through to date in my life. It is true what they say, the person closest to your heart will hurt you the worst. On the flip side...I am learning a lot about myself, and never knew how strong I was. It is weird watching and experiencing the love for someone die....it is the most painful process, but one I will survive.

Under Construction

2010-10-04T12:30:00.001-07:00

My blog is currently under construction, trying to bring some mojo back so please excuse the MESS

Things are falling

2010-04-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

Things are falling into place and it feels lovely. It will be complete when we finally move, and get our own place. But for now I am making progress of getting everything ready to launch for my creative business. It takes a lot of time, and energy, but damn it feels good.

U.N.O. Baby Bags

2010-02-17T11:05:00.000-08:00

First of I would like to apologize for such a delay in posting! I don't know where the time goes. Now for the post.....This is the first of many baby bags. This was made for my girlfriend Melissa. I will be taking custom orders for them, they will take about a month or so (could be less) to make and ship to you. If you are interested please email me and we will get started on your order!

A Few Updates

2009-08-07T12:26:00.000-07:00

Hi!! Hope everyone is doing great. I will be doing an interview at 1pm today listen in if you are available. http://www.talkshoe.com/talkshoe/web/talkCast.jsp?masterId=12326&cmd=tc

I will be updating my etsy shop in the next week with
- 3 different kinds of tutus
1. A basic tutu
2. Basic + ribbons
3. Basic + ribbons + flowers
- wire rings
- more hair clips
- manifestation jars
- journals
- new U.N.O. Bags

So stay tuned, and check back at my etsy store for the new items!

Tutus

2009-08-05T13:20:00.001-07:00

Here is a sneak peek at the tutus I will be selling!

Wire Rings

2009-08-05T13:00:00.000-07:00

Here are the first wire rings I made. Denton helped me with the phots (I am lucky to have him!) 1. Black Jasper with sterling silver wire 2. Kyanite with sterling silver 3. Dyed Jade (the blue) with gold wire 4. Round hammered link with sterling silver wire 5. Square hammered link with sterling silver wire

View all

Get your own

Paradise Cove for my birthday

2009-08-04T14:59:00.000-07:00

Sysy Ruru & Bubbles

2009-07-10T13:55:00.000-07:00

Syra and Ruby sharing their love for bubbles.

Another outfit sold!

2009-06-14T15:02:00.000-07:00

My good friend bought this VERY cute outfit as a gift! Thank you for your business! Please tell all your friends that are having little girls you can purchase a unique article of clothing for a great price! I mean how cute are the matching bloomers!

I love bloomers :)

So much...

2009-06-04T12:11:00.001-07:00

I have a very long list of things I need to get done, and yet some how I just am having a hard time getting a move on! Does anyone else feel this way? I got up this morning and it is the afternoon already, and doesn't feel like I have got much done. Maybe I will try making a smaller list of things to do today....haha like I can trick my brain if I have a shorter list to look at. Maybe I will just go for a bike ride with Sy-sy and get some more milk.

I am excited about 1010's birthday coming up next week, we are going away to celebrate!

Syra and Mama

2009-05-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

A new picture of Syra and I, enjoy!

For the Hair

2009-05-21T20:43:00.001-07:00

So I have been wanting to make some hair clips now for quite some time! So here are the pictures! I am hoping between some stores, and etsy I will sell them all!

By the way, since I had just a great response with them I have made a couple new ones, that I still need to take photos. So stay tuned for new pics!

Updated Family Picture!

2009-04-25T12:57:00.000-07:00

And two new ones of me! I was waiting for Denton to finish an appt! So I took a few photos...hehe

So Excited

2009-04-06T21:21:00.001-07:00

One of my bags got selected to be featured on Etsy! Check it out!!!!! Totally made my day

http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list.php?room_id=50812

VIP

2009-03-24T13:22:00.001-07:00

I really need to block out some time and vamp up my etsy shop. It is looking a little sad.

Hopefully I can get that done within the next week or so

A Sneak Peek

2009-03-24T12:18:00.000-07:00

Here is a sneak peek at a new U.N.O. Bag in the works!

California Lovin'

2009-03-05T20:20:00.000-08:00

This a new bag I just finished. It has two pockets, one inside, and one on the backside. It has an inside liner that was a tank top. The bird and stars are off of two shirts of my daughter's. All in all I find this to be a very fun bag...a california girl's bag.

Perfect bag size, not too big and not too small.

This bag is for sale so let me know if you are interested!

New U.N.O Bag

2009-02-19T18:51:00.001-08:00

A New U.N.O. Bag

A New Painting

2009-02-19T18:44:00.001-08:00

A New Painting I finished

I <3 Them

2009-02-09T18:06:00.001-08:00

I love these two so much!

A Sneak Preview

2009-02-09T18:04:00.001-08:00

Hi all, this is a new bag sneak preview

Lady in Red _ U.N.O Bag

2009-01-21T20:48:00.000-08:00

This one I need to finish the handle, and the closure for the top, but other than that it done.

It has a cell phone pocket on the inside and another larger. The back has one large pocket as well.

What is in her eyes is it really love?

A 98% finished UNO Bag

2009-01-16T18:42:00.000-08:00

I am not sure of this one's name, but it will come.

This is a LARGE tote styled bag it just ended up creating itself that large. A vintage pink Christian Dior tie as the strap backed with Sunbrella, buttons, the "face" is from my friend Ken Anderson's HUMAN design (if I have that correctly), with roses & leopard leaves/feathers, and some friendly rain (cause rememeber when it rains it release negative ions in the air, and that is why it is such a lovely feeling right after it rains)

This bag has a liner, with a double pocket on the inside. With a large pocket with leopard layered heart with puffy green fern wings. I really like all the colors on this bag.

A start of a new UNO Bag

2009-01-13T17:44:00.000-08:00

Who could this be for? hmmmmmm......

New Movement

2009-01-11T19:11:00.000-08:00

My husband Denton has been brewing with change, and he has created some new movement! He had an idea that struck him and he put it into action, as well as get as a great foundation website built and up! I am so excited for him!!!

His computer company is Daventech.net ~~~~ website www.daventech.net

Check it out!

U.N.O. Bags Part 6

2009-01-05T21:59:00.000-08:00

This is a smaller size bag, with some fun pockets, and buttons!

U.N.O. Bags Part 5

2009-01-01T13:34:00.000-08:00

So far this is one of my favorite bags I have done so far. I really don't want to part with it. I might not. muahhahah that is my evil laugh...hehe. This is the Pirate Booty Bag, that wasn't quite done from before. It is now finished, it may be sold already, but it is not for sure yet. So it may have a chance to get up on etsy for sale, but then again I might just keep it too. Time will tell. But for now here are the pictures of PIRATE BOOTY! ARgggg matey.

All made from re-loved materials, the handle is a vintage tie, it has 2 pockets on the backside one with lace, and a narrow one with a button closure. The inside pocket has a nice touch too. The top of the bag also has a button closure. I added a pretty cool button on the skulls eye on the front of the bag. Yeah the more I talk about this bag the more I want to keep it. hahaha I am so bad like that! Well I am off to go design another bag that I will probably want to keep too! Have a fabulous day, it is beautiful!!!

U.N.O. Bags Part 4

2009-01-01T10:17:00.000-08:00

This is another bag I finished. Made from all re-loved materials, it is a bright green orchid with leopard print accessorized with brown and black, and with some cute buttons for accents. Has two pockets on the inside, one may be specifically used for a cell phone. It also has a large pocket on back, and a place to hook your keys or whatever you wish on the side tail with the knots.

My little girl, Syra

2008-12-26T22:29:00.000-08:00

Manifestation Jars

2008-12-22T18:21:00.000-08:00

These are some of the new manifestation jars I have finished! Here is a little blurb that comes with them. They are customizable with the outside paper that covers the canister, I have lots of options for that.
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This is a manifestation jar. This is a sacred place to write down your most desired wishes, thoughts, and wants into this jar to help manifest them into the physical realm.

Since all thoughts are energy, why not apply the law of attraction to them?

Each jar comes with:
- a variety of tumbled stones
- a quartz point
- herbs
- a cotton ball with essential oils
- strips of paper to write on

Enjoy and let your mind be free,

Syran Dreams

U.N.O. Bags Part 3

2008-12-22T18:14:00.000-08:00

This is another bag I finished! Has a liner inside, and a large pocket on back with button closures.

Dan and Melissa Gibbs

2008-12-22T17:02:00.000-08:00

I did this mixed media piece for Dan and Melissa as a wedding present. They got married on 8-8-08 on the beach.

I wanted to give them something special, a treasure if you will. They are special to Denton and I. I am happy to say they flipped and were over the moon with this piece when I gave it to them. In the background, which is now hidden from all the paint is their wedding ceremony and vows.

I love you guys!

U.N.O. Bags Part 2

2008-12-22T15:36:00.000-08:00

This one was a gift for my mom with a picture of Syra on it. This one is quite large, but I know she will put it to good use. I still have to finish putting some velcro on it to close the top and the back pocket.

U.N.O. Bags Part 1

2008-12-22T15:27:00.000-08:00

I have finished some of my Un-like No Other Bags. They are going to be all sizes, but these few first ones are large! They are great cause they are multi-purpose, for example you could use them at the farmers market, and as a over night bag, etc....

The hard part is coming up with names for them. Well, going to keep moving I have so much I am trying to squeeze in and get done before Christmas

VNA website

2008-12-16T15:01:00.001-08:00

Well one of my many projects is done. My first website I built is up!!! I did a new website for the family business Van Nuys Awning Company. That company is my dad's whole life, he has given up his dreams to work the business.

I built the foundation, and Denton did all the finishing work.

Anywho check out the website www.vannuysawning.com

Thanksgiving

2008-11-30T22:59:00.000-08:00

I hope Thanksgiving was a great one for everyone this year. I cooked again this year, last year dinner was ordered from Whole Foods (which honestly was really disappointing), I was in no shape to cook it had only been 1 week since I had Syra. This year was great. The turkey came out amazing in the convection oven. I made a new stuffing, which I believe is here to stay, Artichoke Parmesan Sourdough Dressing. It was delicious I don't think I have ever loved stuffing so much. The mashed potatoes were very good too. I sauteed brussels sprouts (I love them). I made my great great grandmother's yam recipe straight from the heart of Kentucky, I think they were my husbands favorites this year. And my gravy came out pretty darn good this year. We bought a pumpkin pie, but I did make fresh whipped cream to top it off.

As for my art and stuff, I am happy to say that I am finally starting to sell! Not on etsy, but at least it is selling. I am very happy to have some kind of movement. I knew when I finally committed to truly following my heart's desire to do what I am doing, that it would take time. I am building from the ground up. Sure it is scary not knowing how I will make my bills, but somehow I get through each month. I keep focusing on my thoughts today, create my tomorrow.

I feel like I am repeating myself, but I am excited to say I have some new things in the works. I cannot wait to share.

I hope at the end of this holiday weekend, you have peace in your heart and a smile on your face. I am contemplating on sharing something here on my blog, but right now at this moment I do not have clarity, so I will end my post here for tonight.

Journals

2008-11-12T19:25:00.000-08:00

I finally got my handmade journals done! Hooray...I have a couple stores that are interested after that I will get the rest of them posted. I have one up for sale right now in my etsy shop. www.syrandreams.etsy.com

The possibilities are endless with these handmade journals, with your creative mind, and a variety of papers. In here you can enjoy envelope pockets, ready made to do lists, vellum paper (which you may also use for tracing), lined paper, graph paper, watercolor paper, blank white paper, and confetti paper. In addition they are re-fillable. These make great gifts for a special someone or to treat your inner artist.

Enjoy, and let your mind be free.

Syran Dreams

New stuff

2008-11-06T12:35:00.000-08:00

I am working on some new stuff right now, and I am very excited about it. I will take some pictures soon to share. Been feeling a bit under the weather, but starting to feel a tiny bit better. New stuff coming soon.....

The tasks that were completed

2008-10-27T10:48:00.001-07:00

I had a busy weekend!
I washed laundry
Washed the sheets on our bed and Syra's crib
Put up some more stuff on Ebay
Knitted 2 new scarfs
Learned 4 new stitches in knitting
Went for bike rides
Bought some toilet paper - that is important stuff ;)
Cooked yummy meals
Vacuumed the room
Cleaned the bathroom
Straightened my hair
Swept the floors, and swifered, and put the finishing spray on the hardwood floors
I didn't get to clean the stove top, yet
I took more pictures of items that will go up for auction on Ebay
Went grocery shopping - just for the staples
I know there is more but at the moment I cannot think of anything else

Airstream

2008-10-16T14:27:00.000-07:00

My very good friend is on a path that is winding her way to her very own airstream. So I made this mixed media painting for her as a gift!

For the love of food

2008-10-16T13:34:00.000-07:00

My favorite food is mexican food!

I love cold Chinese food

I love cold pizza for breakfast

I love to buy fruits and veggies at the farmers market

I LOVE to cook

I love to try new things

I hate the microwave and fast food, but I do love McDonald's ice coffee!

I love apples and raspberries

Trader Joes Dark Sumatra coffee is really good!

A deeper layer of ants

2008-10-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

After thinking about all the ants that I have encountered in my room, I started thinking about what they represent to me personally. They are amazing little creatures, with all the features they are capable of. I hate to kill them, but they are not welcome in my room, and at that point they were staging a take over!

So getting back to my original reason for this post, I looked up - ant - in Animal Speaks, by Ted Andrews. This was so interesting that I felt the need to share it with you. There was quite a bit of explanation but I will share the part that struck me the most.

Ant
Keynote: Industriousness, Order, and Discipline

"If the ant has shown up as a totem, examine your own industriousness. Are you disciplining yourself enough to accomplish the tasks at hand? Are you or those around you looking for the quick and easy way? Are you neglecting important activities? Are you laying a good foundation? Are you adding new structures to your life with each passing year in some fashion - education, jobs, hobbies, etc? Are you being patient with your efforts? Are you being patient with yourself? With others? Are you making things greater and more difficult than they need be? Are you missing an opportunity to initiate new creations and endeavors? Ant can teach you how to harness your own power to design and recreate your life and its circumstances from the ground up. Ant can show you how best to work with others for the good of everyone. Ant teaches us the regardless of circumstances, if the effort is true, the reward will follow - in the most beneficial time and manner. Ant is the promise of success through effort." - Ted Andrews

This struck me with such great force, because the ants that "suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my room" I felt appeared with a message. And it wasn't a message for me to get mad that they were there, but rather for me to look deeper in the meaning of their apperance. These are all the types of questions that pertain to my life, and the direction I am going in. When I read this is made all the sense in the world of why the ants were suddenly all over the place.

It is now at the end of the day, and after looking at the full puzzle finally pieced together with all the componets I now can see the complete picture. I got it, thank you. I am now thinking about how many ants sacrificed their lives in order for me to "get the picture". Thank you each and every tiny ant that came into my room, to show me a greater and deeper layer of my life. Some how I am thinking that I won't be forgetting these ants....again thank you.

Ants

2008-10-15T13:19:00.001-07:00

I have just spent over an hour fighting ants. They were trying to move in. Between a vacuum and a squirt bottle with vinegar, cinnamon, and crushed red pepper all that is left now is stragglers. I feel gross and need to go take a shower.

I realized something

2008-10-11T09:27:00.000-07:00

I will be making some prints of my original paintings/mixed media to sell. That way my art is more affordable at this time, seeing how the economy is "doing so well" right now. So Denton and I will be working on taking photos of my stuff that we will have prints made. In the mean in time I am working on another item to sell. While I am working on that I will be posting my scarfs on etsy. So bear with me as I try to reconfigure my store, and what items I am offering at this time.

new stuff

2008-10-10T14:19:00.000-07:00

I posted some new stuff for sale on my etsy shop! I had to let Syra play in the Tupperware cupboard so she was distracted, and I could get some work done! Whew, now I have a big Tupperware mess to clean up. Oh well, I guess it was time to reorganize it is anyways. haha Check out my new stuff. - www.syrandreams.etsy.com

aaahhhhhhhhhhgggggggg

2008-10-07T17:48:00.000-07:00

Don't you just feel like screaming out loud sometimes? I wish that there was a place I could go on the edge of a cliff with no one around, and just scream as loud, and long as I can. There are some things that I have stopped trying to figure out and for everything else there's VISA. (that would work if I even had a VISA!!!) hahaha that commercial fit perfectly couldn't resist myself. Anywho, it is hard to understand why things get so weird!?! Oh well the weirdness I have just stopped looking at under microscope, it is was it is. Actually now that I am thinking about, I think these awkward moments stem from the person's uncomfortablilty of not being able to say what they really feel like saying, which in turn gives off the "weird vibe". I am learning to enjoy and be a FULL expression of myself in these weird/awkward moments.

Isn't it interesting when you get to a certain point what you are willing to deal with/put up with and what you aren't? It seems to change as you get older, and you just cannot go back to dealing with what you would have a year, two or 6 years ago? I am there my friends, there are somethings I am not willing to deal with any longer, and so it has begun.
Now that I have that out of my system, I cannot wait to post my new stuff that I have been painting. But first I need to get some pictures of them, so I shall be back.

A scarf for Syra

2008-10-03T20:21:00.000-07:00

I knitted this scarf for Syra, I like it! It turned out super cute. And cause I like it so much I am think about knitting more to sell, any thoughts?

Cannot miss me now

2008-09-28T21:39:00.001-07:00

Well it has been fun to watch my little shop grow! I now have 6 people who have marked me as a favorite! That is exciting for me especially when you have none in the beginning! Anywho I was thinking of another way to get myself out there and I thought of this...so if you are in my neck of the woods, you can't miss my bright blue subie now!

And yes that is a giraffe butt in the window! haha

Two Birds

2008-09-18T17:49:00.000-07:00

I made this one with my husband and I in mind. I like it. Just having fun on some watercolor paper.

It is that time again...

2008-09-17T22:14:00.001-07:00

Hi it is me again...it is that time to post another blog. It is getting late, baby girl is asleep, and I have some thoughts I would like to share. I have spent some time doing some research this evening, not to mention hunting black widow spiders. I think I have killed over 50 in about a week in our back yard, ughhhh. Anywho moving away from the spiders...on a random note I think I found our next bedding (very excited about that) I will buy it with my husband's card when he leaves the house tomorrow! (I kid, I kid) A girl can wish right? Nah I still have some birthday money left over, with a list of art supplies to buy and now this bedding maybe I will flip for heads or tails. hahaha Sometimes I can be so bad!

To get back on track with this blog, see how easy I get side tracked? I am writing because I have been reading blogs, getting inspired, and finally getting detailed on what I want to manifest in my life. And when I say detailed, I mean down to a nats...umm ASS! There I said it. lol

I have also been looking into doing an art show soon with the holiday season approaching too, so I am excited for that. It is still formulating, but making a goal for myself. Besides the art show I have really taken a leap, at least for me, of getting my etsy shop up, (the appearance is still under construction, need a banner that is a third done in photoshop) and finish getting all my items posted, getting this blog together. But I guess the leap part for me is that vulnerability, exposing a fleshy part to people that I don't know or do know and there is still some uncomfortableness to it. But that uncomfortableness is small compared to how GOOD it feels! It almost feels like a horse running in full gear for the first time. Gosh I miss riding horses, it has been such a part of my life up until a couple years ago.

If you know me then it should come as no surprise that I have lots of things in the works, pokers in the fire if you will. Some will come to fruition sooner than others but nonetheless I am excited about them all. More to come later on these...

Another area that excites me is meeting new people, and making new friends, ones who share the same kind of interests, passion for life and art. There are so many talented people out there, and in some way each of those that I have come across so far inspire me deeply. So thank you for that! It is getting late and as easy as it is to turn into a night owl, (my husband and I are creatures of the night) with baby girl waking early it is starting to wear me out. It is so hard to pull myself away from my projects and go to sleep, especially when this is the time, besides naps, when I can truly get in the "groove" if you will. So goodnight, sleep well and see you soon. <3 Sadye

Wings

2008-09-15T16:07:00.000-07:00

This one is another reflection on how I was feeling. Sometimes getting anxious through this transformation process. I just want to fly already!!! I know where I am and where I want to go, it is the in between space that is hard sometimes. But I am learning a lot about myself and my journey in this life time. I am doing what I need to do, while focusing on doing what I love, so I may do what I love and make money. So I am still feeling wings, but I getting much closer to flying.

Have a heart

2008-09-15T15:51:00.000-07:00

This piece reflects a bit of what is going on in my environment, with others. And I guess on some level I am expressing these flavor of feelings. ahaha that would make a good spice name. So I used a song that inspired me to do this piece in the background, and then away we flew with paint, paper, and GUTS. NO GUTS no GLORY.

A place...

2008-09-15T15:37:00.000-07:00

I started this piece a while ago, and I just couldn't see it in my mind until this past weekend. It hit and my fingers could barely keep up with my brain. The girl is one of Leonardo da Vinci's, and I just think she is so beautiful. Leonardo is one guy I would like to meet, if time wasn't a factor. This reflects a space within myself that is full of color, wonder and deep thoughts about life, the world, myself, love, all of it.

New art work

2008-09-15T13:31:00.000-07:00

It is funny how once I stepped away from my art work, and started knitting for a day or two how the ideas just came flooding in! I forgot how therapeutic knitting is for me. It helped tremendously with my nerves and my job when I was pregnant. Anywho, I am very excited to share some pictures of my new art work with you. One piece I will post once my dear friend Ella Joy receives her birthday gift, I don't want to ruin the surprise. I will blog about each piece, and included detailed pictures. I hope you enjoy, and would love to hear some of your thoughts!

Etsy it's official...

2008-09-15T13:27:00.000-07:00

horray! My etsy shop www.syrandreams.etsy.com, is officially up and running with items to buy! (Currently I have all just jewelry up for sell.) Check them out, I am still loading more things to sell, so keep checking back for more goodies!

Insight

2008-09-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

Tonight I saw something that lead me to question again, who my real friends are. It struck a chord within myself, that reminded me to take a deeper look. I have, also been asking myself what do I need to learn from this? Why is this causing me pain? How can I grow in this? I will need some time to reflect on this situation, see how I would like to handle it. Maybe it is just time to let go of what doesn't seem to be working anymore, people change, which changes their connections with the ones around them. Things cannot always stay the same now can they? And I guess you could say that I have changed. My life is different than it was a year ago, and I wouldn't want to be any other way. It is time to have only those that love and support me and my family in their lives. To try and make it work with those who don't, is being untrue to myself.

Overwhelmed

2008-09-12T21:16:00.001-07:00

I have so much to do! With all that I have written down to do, I feel as though I am just sitting here spinning my wheels. I think it is time to step away and do something else, change my focus up then come back and then start fresh.

Getting closer...

2008-08-31T14:35:00.000-07:00

Well, my etsy shop is getting closer to having items on it. I am hoping to put a few more finishing touches on the appearance, and then get everything together to post items for sale! Yeah! I am excited, it has been more work than I had anticipated, but satisfying nonetheless. It feels good to keep making the progress on the goals that I have set for myself, getting the etsy shop up and running has been one of them.

Here is the link www.syrandreams.etsy.com Remember it is still under construction, more to come. I will post when it is buying ready!

Larger Newb's

2008-08-20T23:28:00.001-07:00

These are the larger one's

Newbe

2008-08-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

Some of the new art work, that I have been working on. Here are some shots of the, not completely done pieces, haha work in progress. Isn't that an artist's motto? Well it seems to fit me! Just want to do a few finishing touches on them, but you get the idea. I will post the final pictures when they are done, which isn't tonight.

My dear friend

2008-08-12T17:33:00.000-07:00

I finally found my two photos with Martin and I. Here is Martin, he was extraordinary in many ways.He passed away over 3 years ago, he had a massive heart attack at the young age of 36. I miss him dearly. I love you Martin, and think of you daily. I know that you are with me, even though you are not physically with us anymore.

A thing for fungi

2008-08-06T13:39:00.000-07:00

I am not sure when and why, but I have begun to realize that I have a thing for mushrooms. I get excited when I see them and I run to get my camera. haha Well this time I didn't have to run too far for I found a pod of wild mushrooms in my own backyard. No I didn't eat any thank you, but I did take some sweet pictures! Here is a taste of what I took.

A piece of my truth

2008-08-06T12:42:00.000-07:00

There is no right way or wrong way to create. There is only one way to do it and that is in your own way. It is what it is, trying to measure what you created against someone or something else is not giving the value to what you are doing. You have to be true to yourself, you have to listen to your own instincts, even if it means that you are the only one standing on your side of the river bank.

There are so many levels of creativity it amazes me. There are so many ways to create in this life, it will be on going 'til the day we die. It is so fulfilling to me to create no matter what it is. We are all creative beings, some of us are more in touch with it than others. To each his own way. I think that life is here for us to create, live, love, laugh, share the things that matter the most. I want to get to the end of my life and know that I created the best one possible.

For I am me and there is only one of me. Therefore I have to create what is best for me, I have to love me the way I want to be loved. Love should not come with strings or conditions. I am one of a kind and I intend on living with that in the front of my mind. I cannot compare me to you or you to him or her, because that is not honoring who we truly are, an individual.

What it means to me

2008-08-06T10:46:00.000-07:00

It has taken me 27 years to get to this point. It is now or never for me, and I choose now. I am ready to shine. I am ready to start dancing in line at the grocery store, haha that would be great. I am ready to meet like minded individuals who share the same passions and values as I do. I am ready to step into my power of potential and use it. I am ready to create, beautify and accept. I know that stepping into the unknown, giving my fears a chance to be heard, and then letting them go. I am sending a signal to the universe, I am truly ready for the adventure of a life time. It will start to happen, people, things, creations will come and be just as they are supposed to be. It will take shape and form, the story will start writing itself. I am but a player it, a character. It is not only about me but you as well.

There is a part of me that I feel I have held back, for fear of being judged or fear of not being good enough. If I stop and realize that my art, my creations, I do them because it makes me feel great inside and I can live with that. I am not doing my art for your approval or nod, or to copy and compete with others. I just want to be me, and to do what feeds my spirit, with this I can go to bed a happy girl. I love to see the art that is out there in the world, it inspires me to go home dig in all my boxes of collected goodies and produce something that captures that moment or at least the essence of it. I cannot help if others judge me, or use what I produce against me for the only thing they are trying to hurt is my ego. And I have come to realize that egos are pretty useless for the kind of pain we put our own selves through. To try and be accepted, loved, to fit in, understood or to be the perfect "skinny weight", I don't want to fit it. It is okay if you do not understand me or believe in me. I love myself and that is the only kind of love that is fulfilling, not placing our happiness in others, because at some point we will be disappointed or feel unloved. Which then triggers the best friend of the ego, the pain body. And we have all had experiences with the pain body and they are not too fun. I am starting to realize that all of my needs, want, desires, and love I can give to myself, and what I get from others is icing to my yummy cake (me).

This blog that I started is a space just for me, to share my thoughts and creations with others who genuinely care about making this world a better more beautiful place. A space where imagination, and beautiful things can flourish into what they want, instead of what is expected. A place where I can unplug from daily life, and place where I can free fall down the white rabbit hole and just be, to explore my mind to poke around in all the corners to say what is on my mind. A place to let my imagination BE FREE, like a horse running with wind. Not to question what I am thinking or doing, but just a place to soak in all that runs through my mind, and create it. A place to get and give inspiration.

You look around the internet and our whole world is at our finger tips good and bad. There is much negative being spread, "with all the gossip magazines" as well as sick twisted websites that are available, I could go on, but won't. I realize that there is always a battle going on between good and evil, between light and dark, not only on the internet but in every aspect of life. There is even a battle of good and dark within myself, I am far from perfect, but I am tired of people putting others down or finding fault. I am ready to accept others for who they are and their choices. I will also stand up for what I believe in, my values, and for me. I am ready to detach from the EGO, an extension of myself that really isn't what I am about, what my soul is about. I understand that I will get tested probably everyday with this, sometimes I will pass and can accept that I will probably fail some tests. My feat that will be continuous is realizing is if it is me talking or if it my ego talking. If I can tell the difference between the two, the next step can be taken. I do not wish to add any more negativity then there already is in this world. I just want to create beautiful things, with paper, paint, canvas, sparkles, ribbons, and jewelry that rocks my world. I want to add my corner to the world, but then again it isn't really "mine" is it?

More Paper Cards

2008-07-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

I found some more cards that I made for Valentine's this year.

Covellite

2008-07-17T15:43:00.000-07:00

First off let me say that I absolutely love Covellite, I love the energy not to mention the color! It is one of my favorites. The color on this particular piece is a deep blue with a red purple flash of color running through it. Again I got this cabochon from Chris as well as the amazing opal. I built this setting out of soft wax, had it cast into silver. This is another piece that is my mothers. I added in the moon and star cause that is just what I felt lead to do. The back is cut out, one of my signature signs on my pieces. I have another pendant that is mine but I haven't quite finished it yet, when I do will post some pics.

A Tiger's Meow

2008-07-17T15:15:00.000-07:00

This is a piece I made for someone who didn't end up wanting it in the end, it scarred me for a short while. Sometimes I am just too sensitive, but it was a great learning process for me. But anywho, this is a tiger eye cabochon that is domed on both sides from Chris, with two grossular garnets one on top and one on the bottom. Both of them have been faceted by Martin. These garnets are spectacular and the color on them is just gorgeous. They go great with the tiger eye. The setting I built out of soft wax and had cast in to 14ct yellow gold. I picked out two prong settings which I soldered onto the setting. I then set the stones, and then the tigers eye. My signature on my pieces is having the back cut out so the energy of the stone can come through while you are wearing it. Again I apologize for my camera it isn't the best for taking these kinds of pictures, but you can see what it looks like. This is definitely a power piece to wear, meeeow!

Papillon

2008-07-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

This is a yellow gold butterfly necklace I made for my mom. It is on the larger side. I designed it out of soft wax. The body of the butterfly is a koroit opal, which I got from my friend Chris the wired artist. I love his work, and did I mention his love for opals! And the head is green glass, faceted by Martin. My mom really wanted a butterfly necklace, and honestly this piece took me a while, like years to do. I just started it one day, stuck it away and didn't finish it until earlier this year. Must have been the right time for her to get it and be able to wear, for she is getting ready to fly. Again my camera isn't the greatest in this kind of shot, but you get the idea! I wanted to try and show you all the color in the opal!

My first

2008-07-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

This is my first major necklace I finished. Most of my jewelry that I make has an organic feel to it. It doesn't look like you bought it at Tiffany's for sure, that just isn't my style. This necklace is a very special piece to me. To start, it has a 10 carat untreated aquamarine on top with a prong setting I built for it. I like to work with untreated stones, the energy is just different than those of treated for color intensity. It seems that you can hardly get ahold of stones that are not heat treated for color. They are treating them as they pull them out of the mines. And don't get me started on all the diamond controversy, makes me sick to think what they are doing. Anyways getting back to my lotus pendant. Then I built the lotus flower out of soft wax, and had it cast into gold. With the untreated citrine at the bottom, I got to facet that myself with my dear friend Martin. (who is no longer with us, had a massive heart attack and died at the age of 36) I picked it out from a batch of rough citrine, and I faceted that into a brilliant round. I didn't get to facet anymore stones with Martin, this citrine was the only one, hence the specialness. So I built the stage for it all with wax wires and once I got the lotus back I metal smithed, it to the necklace, and then set the two stones. The necklace is yellow gold and white gold. My camera isn't the greatest for taking these kind of pictures, but you can see what it looks like.

stay tuned

2008-07-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

Stay tuned for a new post on my jewelry. My honey and I are taking pictures right now! Exciting stuff!

Cherry baby

2008-07-09T23:03:00.001-07:00

The way I drive to work I pass by a nursery, and I love their sign that they have. So one day I got an itch to paint. I asked myself , what the hell am I going to paint? All I could think of was that sign I see everyday. So I sat down and painted what I saw in my mind. These are my first paintings I have done.

Be mine

2008-07-08T16:37:00.000-07:00

These are only a few of the Valentine's I made this year. I think I made about 15 or so total. The pictures aren't that great but you can get an idea. Most of the stamping that is on them has been embossed with glitters. If you want me to make you some let me know! Each one is unique in itself, they never come out the same.

A dream

2008-07-06T22:42:00.000-07:00

I dream of a room that I will have one day, that will hold all my creations (mess, haha). Come on you know how it is when you are creative, and saving stuff to use at some point in time, plus to have all your supplies for how many different kinds of "hobbies". One week painting, the next jewelry, the week after that? I don't like getting that far ahead, lol. In my "room", I can and will have everything in there, and all my "supplies" have their special spot. It will be amazing, and satisfying to have a room of creations that I can call my own. Be able to stop at any point in project and walk out of the room and shut the door, come back it is right there waiting for me.

Plus I think my husband would love to have all my creative odds and ends (again, ah hem...mess, haha) out of our room and have a real bedroom, uncluttered.

One day I will post a picture of my special room. But until then, beware of the bedroom! LOL

2 pages, 1 book

2008-07-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

When I found out I was pregnant I decided to do a book for my little girl. My thoughts, feelings, messages and love in a book that I created all just for her. I wrote little sayings for her, and well anyways people who have seen it just flip. They love it, and tell me that I should do something with so I decided to post a picture so you can see some of my paper creations. I would like to do baby showers (or bridal showers too) where all the people who come can bring a picture and make a page for the book with their message for the baby. If you are interested let me know! It is a little different approach on activities for showers. It is great, because you can integrate pages from a traditional baby book into a new unique book. And plus constantly add pages and keep expanding into new books. I would also like to do some classes, I will keep you posted on my progress on that. These are 2 pages from Syra's book, I hope you like them. I am going to try and get some pictures up of my Valentines I made this year for my family.

Been thinking

2008-07-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

I have been carrying a trusty notebook that I have been tracking all my thoughts on where I want to go with my blog, and what I want to put in it. Along with that I have started to make and create my personal website, although I am not sure of the name yet. It is a website that you will be able to purchase my creations. So I guess what I am trying to say in an indirect way is I am getting excited again about getting my creative self linked to the world. You could say I am getting ready to expose myself!?! Well there is a part of me that feels that way. A few people have seen my stuff, jewelry and paintings. There is a part of me that thinks if I don't expose then I cannot get rejected or criticized. It is tough being half Leo and half Cancer. A part of me is very out there and in the center of attention and the other part is reserved, cautious, unsure of having the spotlight on me, until I get comfortable then watch out! But it takes a while for the cancer side to feel comfortable. haha It is funny when I stop to think, there is a part of me that is exposed right now in what I am revealing with what I am writing, but then again I haven't really told anyone about this blog yet!

Stuck

2008-05-23T18:40:00.000-07:00

I have found that since I have started back working to have a regular paycheck coming in, I have been rather stuck in being creative. I come home and just don't know what to do with myself. I never cease to amaze myself in how complex I can make things. Sometimes I make it as simple as if you want to do it, then do it. Just you have to pee? Then pee, or if you are thirsty, then drink water. Want to paint then pull all your paint shit out and just do and quit thinking about it. Other times it just doesn't seem so easy. I have come to find that I am my own worst nightmare. I block myself from what it is that I am wanting to do. Why? Most of my life I have been close to, around, near or right on the edge of the cliff, but in the end I haven't jumped. I haven't allowed myself to be fully submersed in the faith of my own creativity. I feel as if I have only played with the first couple of layers of creativity that I am wrapped in. I know that I am go deeper much, much deeper. I am just trying to understand why I block or stop myself in the process. I find that if I stop thinking and just start doing, some how the situation that is going round and round in my head, suddenly it gets quiet. Crickets all I want to hear is crickets and rainfall right now....

Wondering

2008-05-14T15:38:00.000-07:00

How does one go from one point to another? Thinking about it is one thing, but physically getting yourself there seems to hold a bit of a challenge.

Stay tuned for whats to come

2008-05-09T19:46:00.000-07:00

I am about to launch myself into the world! I will be marking my spot if you will, haha. I will be posting pictures of my works. Until then...peace

Popping my blog cherry

2008-05-05T22:01:00.000-07:00

Well this is officially my first blog post on blogger. Feels good...I hope we have a lot of good times ahead of us. I had a bunch of things that I wanted to write out but now here in the moment, I find the words gone. So I will keep it short, sweet and simple. I will write again, maybe tomorrow once I tap into my inspiration again. Good night and de-lish dreams.